a post that follows after the "sigh" post

my previous post said that i've a very heavy heart. but i didn't share why my heart was heavy and why i felt weak and inadequate. Actually its mainly cos the people i'm reaching out to weren't responsive to God and i feel very sad and burdened. I wished i can do more but yet I noe i cant change the hearts of people. But God is good and faithful as usual. and last tuesday i had an amazing encounter with God.

i've this colleague who goes faithfully to BSFf (bible study fellowship) but she is not a Christian. Since knowing that about her, i've tried to outreach to her and help her understand more about God. usually i just help her with her BSF homework and try to help her understand who God is. I've asked her before what is stopping her from receiving Jesus into her life on a few occasions. the first time she say she feels christianity like dun respect other religion. The 2nd time i asked her the 4 spiritual laws and at the 4th law (we need to individually receive Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord; then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives) i asked her if she knows that she has to personally receive Christ, she say she dun mind. but another colleague showed up v soon and we din managed to finish our conversation! :/

In Jul 09, i started going for this BSF too at the same place she goes to.. and 3 weeks ago we went to BSF from office together. and we started toking about God in her life again. but at that time, her response was that she's very contented with her current life and our conversation stopped there cos we had to sing hymm and start BSF. After that nite, i was very discourage and felt very sad cos my finite mind tells me that if she cannot see the need for God, then its very hard for she to come to know Him.

Last tuesday i went home together with her from BSF and we talked about repentance. it led me to ask her some questions regarding her belief. it led to me trying to explain to her why we need to receive Christ and then she asked "how to receive?" my heart leaped! while i continued explaining, the train came. i told her if we board the train we may not be able to say the prayer and she took a step back! i was like wow!! then we went to a corner in Raffles place MRT station and i led her to say the sinners prayer. this is the first time i led someone to say the sinners prayer. i was filled with excitement! hahaha.

after tat we cont our journey bk home and she seems hungry to learn more abt God. have to continue to pray for her to grow up well in God! :) :)

i learnt alot about God through this testimony.
1) God is sovereign and is in control of every situation. Even though I'm limited, God is BIG.
2) Everything happens in God's timing and He's a faithful God! I have to learn to be patient and trust that God is working in the hearts of people whom i've committed to Him.
3) Conversion is God's responsibility. I only have to be faithful in sharing the gospel and inviting people to know God. many times i rely on my strength and skills in sharing to people. This time, i was kind of taken by surprise as i wasn't expecting to have an opportunity to share. Yet God used me (And I am super privileged that He did!) to reach out to her.
4) God is my encourager. this is really an encouragement to me cos i remember Sunday i was feeling down and burdened. God encouraged me to pray in the spirit more and allow Holy Spirit to intercede for the people i cared about. i did and prayed for my colleague when prompted by the Holy Spirit. God encouraged me with answered prayer and also power of the Holy Spirit. it also reminds me not to give up on my other frenz.

Hope u have been encouraged! God is faithful and sovereign! Praise God!

sigh

i'm having a very heavy heart today. why? God please help me. I feel very weak and inadequate.