Soon by Brooke Fraser (HILLSONG UNITED 2009)

Love this song. Beautiful lyrics.

"Soon" - Hillsong United (Brooke Fraser)

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him
I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I'll be going To the place
He has prepared for me
There my sin erased
My shame forgotten
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul will be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders
'Round the throne At His feet I
'll lay my crowns My worship
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb
The Lord of heaven

"Across the Earth - Tear Down The Walls" - Hillsong United 2009

Dearest ex-shepherd, I'm so glad you have found the man of your choice! I trust in your good taste! wishing you and Guang Ann a blessed and loving marriage! I'm sure God has purposed something wonderful for the 2 of you :) Pray that together the two of you will do even more for the KOG and bless more lives :)

p.s: thanks for asking me to be one of the jie-mei :) this is one of the weddings i enjoyed the most :)

Weekend getaway + Sharon's birthday celebration

Went to Harris Resort in Batam with Lydia and Sharon on this short getaway from 24 to 25 Oct :) our birthday gal needed a break from her hectic work!!

so ta-da! here we are at Harris Resort in Batam!


Sharon and Lydia took the bus to a place where there was a shopping centre and they had dim sum there!

Taken at dinner. before we went for our 3 hr spa package! woohoo~



Lydia and me! my sheep! :)



Had a good lunch before we left Harris :)

Ice cream at Vivocity after the movie "My Sister's Keeper" (nice and touching show!) no cake but we order ice cream at Hagen Daz :)

Happy Birthday gal! pray that ur birthday wish will come true very soon! thanks for sharing ur wish with us too! *muacks* really thank God i have such a patient and loving friend like you. thanks for showing me so much grace and patience. i noe i still behave like a wildful kid at times. :P wanna tell you again you have really grown in wisdom! I'm bless by the many wise and sound advices u have given to me. I really appreciate them. I think you have become more godly as well and your serving heart really humbles me. You are really busy at work and yet you are ever so willing to take care of people. Your attitude is always good and willing, never complainy when it comes to serving. also, you care a lot for others. that's why you are loved by many! :D really pray that God will continue to grow you to be even more godly and God-fearing and loving that you'll continue to be a blessing to the ppl ard you! Love you!

Praise the Lord!

Yay! today Jestee came for caregroup! heh. quite some time since i met up with her and since she came for any church related event of some sorts. Thank God we were still able to chit chat like we used to. I miss the old days when we meet in office everyday. Nowadays its so hard to squeeze time. Time is definately something i will always lack. no wonder the people say 时间就是金钱. I think the discussion group today wasnt really as expected mainly cos the people are unfamiliar with each other. was expecting that there will be lots of questions and discussions. But i'm glad i got to know them better as we discussed our areas of struggle. But think i should have asked them what did they learn so that they can verbalise their learning points. yep, need to keep that in mind. :)

yay this sat i'm gg to batam for a spa retreat with sharon and lydia! WoohOooOooOOOoo! very excited and looking forward! gg to spend sharon's birthday in batam! heh!

a post that follows after the "sigh" post

my previous post said that i've a very heavy heart. but i didn't share why my heart was heavy and why i felt weak and inadequate. Actually its mainly cos the people i'm reaching out to weren't responsive to God and i feel very sad and burdened. I wished i can do more but yet I noe i cant change the hearts of people. But God is good and faithful as usual. and last tuesday i had an amazing encounter with God.

i've this colleague who goes faithfully to BSFf (bible study fellowship) but she is not a Christian. Since knowing that about her, i've tried to outreach to her and help her understand more about God. usually i just help her with her BSF homework and try to help her understand who God is. I've asked her before what is stopping her from receiving Jesus into her life on a few occasions. the first time she say she feels christianity like dun respect other religion. The 2nd time i asked her the 4 spiritual laws and at the 4th law (we need to individually receive Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord; then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives) i asked her if she knows that she has to personally receive Christ, she say she dun mind. but another colleague showed up v soon and we din managed to finish our conversation! :/

In Jul 09, i started going for this BSF too at the same place she goes to.. and 3 weeks ago we went to BSF from office together. and we started toking about God in her life again. but at that time, her response was that she's very contented with her current life and our conversation stopped there cos we had to sing hymm and start BSF. After that nite, i was very discourage and felt very sad cos my finite mind tells me that if she cannot see the need for God, then its very hard for she to come to know Him.

Last tuesday i went home together with her from BSF and we talked about repentance. it led me to ask her some questions regarding her belief. it led to me trying to explain to her why we need to receive Christ and then she asked "how to receive?" my heart leaped! while i continued explaining, the train came. i told her if we board the train we may not be able to say the prayer and she took a step back! i was like wow!! then we went to a corner in Raffles place MRT station and i led her to say the sinners prayer. this is the first time i led someone to say the sinners prayer. i was filled with excitement! hahaha.

after tat we cont our journey bk home and she seems hungry to learn more abt God. have to continue to pray for her to grow up well in God! :) :)

i learnt alot about God through this testimony.
1) God is sovereign and is in control of every situation. Even though I'm limited, God is BIG.
2) Everything happens in God's timing and He's a faithful God! I have to learn to be patient and trust that God is working in the hearts of people whom i've committed to Him.
3) Conversion is God's responsibility. I only have to be faithful in sharing the gospel and inviting people to know God. many times i rely on my strength and skills in sharing to people. This time, i was kind of taken by surprise as i wasn't expecting to have an opportunity to share. Yet God used me (And I am super privileged that He did!) to reach out to her.
4) God is my encourager. this is really an encouragement to me cos i remember Sunday i was feeling down and burdened. God encouraged me to pray in the spirit more and allow Holy Spirit to intercede for the people i cared about. i did and prayed for my colleague when prompted by the Holy Spirit. God encouraged me with answered prayer and also power of the Holy Spirit. it also reminds me not to give up on my other frenz.

Hope u have been encouraged! God is faithful and sovereign! Praise God!

sigh

i'm having a very heavy heart today. why? God please help me. I feel very weak and inadequate.

~ Christmas is in the air ~

Time flies... its already the 3rd week of December! :D omg... it feels like just yday that i reviewed my 2007 and set my 2008 new year resolutions.  wow.  

December has always been my favourite month. not just because my birthday is in December but also cos Christmas is in Dec! :D i love Christmas. :) it's associated with snow, gifts, reindeers, santa claus and all the yummy cookies, goodies and log cakes. That was my perception until 4 Dec 2002 when i prayed the sinners prayer to receive Christ for the second time in my life.  Since then Christmas had a whole new meaning and purpose! :D  Christmas marks the birth of Christ, our Saviour.  Although he is God, he came in such a humble way for such a great purpose.  :D  This year, our district embarked on a fasting and prayer event from 1 Dec to 24 Dec, i've benefitted much from this fasting and prayer. :)  

Just want to give thanks to God for the friends he have bought to our events :D  thank God that the one day trip to JB was great! We got to know Phylex better and Junyang enjoyed himself on the trip :) I got to talk to Lydia more since she came bk from her Berlin trip as well :) and got to have fun with Cuifen and Candida when we tried to fool around. haha. I pray and trust God that the event we having later will be a great success as well and tat the meaning of Christmas can be communicated effectively!

Some prayers that God answered through this F&P.

My ex-colleague wanted to join my cg for 24th Christmas Service! :D she initiated to come join us as i was about to ask her to join us for service! Praise God.. have been praying that God will continue to keep her close to him. :) trust that God will take care of her and I hope we can grow and serve God together :)

My Dad agreed to go for Mandarin Christmas Service at my Mom's invitation! He said Okay lah, I'll take leave on that day.  Both Mom and I were amazed! I thought he will say that he cannot take leave since its a public holiday eve u know. and PH eve usually lots of ppl go do foot reflex one. God is amazing! 

I must continue to preserve in prayer for them.. :) it pays to be persistent with God! Hallelujah!

= My New Job =

Oh ya, i've changed job. currently working at Bukit Timah. Still doing internal audit, just change company. heh. but every different environment cos commercial the people are much older. (although the people here all look TOO young for their actual age! scary!) hahaha. I find it harder to strike up friendship with some of them since we are in different life stations. There are a few single ladies and only one single guy! hahahaha. cos the whole finance dept on level 4 only got 3 uncles and that single guy joined the Company 1 week after I joined. We always lunch together with my other IA colleague (the one whom i already know before I left my ex-company.) cos the guy prefer to lunch with us - the younger crowd. hohoho.
I'm almost here for one month already however, i'm still adjusting to the work and environment here. Not as relax as i thought it will be. different style of the report writing and audit methods. different timeline. different people working with me. sigh i can only say "I MISS MY EX-COLLEAGUES!" *sobsobz*

I still keep in contact with my ex-colleagues via msn mainly. In addition, had met up with a few of them since i left. They are really busy. Their jobs are like continuous - one after another one. I feel a bit insecure when i am very eng. i fear being useless i guess. plus my probation is 6 months! very long leh... wat if ti dun get confirm even after 6 months?! ya so now u noe the very "off" thoughts that go thru my mind. My only comfort seems to be that its near my house and the pay. But I know that nothing happens by chance and there is a reason why I'm here in this place and not another. I pray that through God's grace i will gradually come to understand and bring Him glory in the things that i do and the work that I produce. :o) Praise be to God!

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)

10-11This is God's Word on the subject: "As soon as Babylon's seventy years are up and not a day before, I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. Jeremiah 33:3 (The Message)

For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. Jeremiah 33:3 (Amplified Bible)

Julien's Baby Shower - 6 September 2008

This cute lit'l bebe is Julien! Ms Gek's son! just turned one month old on 6 Sep 08 :D

He's super adorable. I think he'll grow up to become a handsome and adorable boy :)

Last Sat was the first time i saw my ex-colleagues (other than Jestee, Jovy and CY) since i left HFT. heh. a bit awkward. but felt warm when some of them ask me how am I etc. Thanks for your care and concern :)

Uncommon food

Just want to show u people who chks my blog sometin uncommon in Singapore.

Banana pie and 麻辣chicken nuggets from McDonalds in China. haha.

this one on the left is some 蛋酥 thingy. super nice. No idea how its made at all. hahah. its from a famous restaurant call 阿五美食 in Xin Xiang (新乡) in Henan (河南), China.

My collection of Sermon CDs

I cleared my cupboards yesterday and found that I actually have such a tall stack of sermon CDs that dates back to as far as Aug 2005! Wow.... i counted it, one CD short of 40! amazing. hahaha...

Really thank all my brothers and sisters who chipped in $$ to buy them for me :) one CD can buy one person's lunch leh.. so i really appreciate it. Thank God for Sharon who always remember to help me buy and pass it to me :)

Quote of the Day

I found this quote in a friend's blog:

"LOVE is like an ATM machine, you cannot expect to constantly withdraw money out of it, without depositing any..."

Initially, i agreed with the quote. However, after giving it some thought, I realise that the "love" in this quote only applies to human beings. After living for some 24 years and around 3 months, I have already come to realise that one human being can only love another human being so much. The love between human beings are very much dependent on the actions and emotions that they receive from another human being.

To put it simply, love between human beings are reciprocal in nature. That's why we have to give before we can receive. Of course, there may be times when we give less than we receive. However, such situations may not be sustainable as human beings are incapable of loving another person unconditionally. Hence, often times we are hurt by another human being due to the lack in affection or love despite your giving. Sometimes people even compare the love given by themselves and the love given by the other party. (but really, how to measure? no measuring cup for such purpose leh)

I agree that we definitely need to put in effort in our relationships and friendships with other people. For example, giving others our time, money and sincere hearts.

However, I'm just thankful that God is not like us; glad that no human being is God. I can't imagine God only loves me when I sing praises to Him or when i pray to Him. Haha.. Praise God that he does not look at what we can do for Him or how much we love Him to determine how much He loves and cares for us!!! Indeed man will fail us but God will not! Hallelujah!
I desire to love others with the love that He has given to me and i wish others will be able to one day experience what I am experiencing today!


"Dear God, help me to experience your unconditionally love everyday of my live so that i will be able to live others with the same love. Father, increase my capacity to love and the depth of my love for others. Help me to start with the people closer to me and to be able to gradually expand the circle of love. Thank you Lord, in Jesus name. Amen"

Sushi Go Round

Happy weekend~

Rested at home on Saturday.. slept till 2pm.. wah.. slightly more than 12 hours of sleep. think its okay ba haha.. since its to compensate for the lack of sleep in Shanghai.. hee.. woke up still sick.. the sorethroat did not go away.. however, thank God that the cough was better. =)

After service on Sunday, I went shopping with my sister, Lydia. Accompany her to look at phones.. in the end after comparing Nokia 5700 and Sony Ericsson W660i, we thought that W660i is better. (The choice was confirmed when we ask the person from i bot a SD card from about his opinion on the two phones.) After looking at phones, we had a great time shopping in Taka. Both of us went back very fruitful hahaha.. I spent a lot even though I only only bought 2 items. One is a micro SD card from lucky plaza for S$58.85 and a Issey Miyaki perfume for S$78. but did not take photo of the things that i bot.. hehe.. i tok photos of the items that Lydia bought! hee.. Very happy that I got to spend time with Lydia. cos i feel that i seldom get to interact a lot with her. Thank God for giving us the opportunity to get to know each other better =) Hope that in the future there will be many such opportunities!


This is the W660i, got red colour super cool. hee. Lydia posing with the phone she likes. (=

New shoes that Lydia bought!

New clothes inside!

Super Shopping Day

My last entry was yesterday documenting the many things that i bot. today Jovy and I went to 七浦路， a place selling everything that a woman needs. From bags to shoes to accessories to clothes to nail polish and even to fake eyelashes, you name it and they have it! amazing place with clothes that are cheaper than taiwan and hongkong (though Jovy said that Bangkok clothes cheaper). not as fashionable as taiwan and hongkong but there are good buys there. got nice dress and demin skirt and shorts. nice tee and bags. bot one bag, the basket kind. (reminds me of the pinic basket that my cg frenz and I was toking about) but its very fashionable now in China, Taiwan and HongKong cos its summer.. I bot one in HongKong last year. but haven use it since it broke even though my mum has mended it.. haha.. anyway i have decided to carry the two basket bags for all the wkends in August.. hee...
bot a lot of clothes (got one dress!), 4 toiletries bag, 13 small pouch and a few accessories.. the accessories are cheaper than buying online.. the desgin is the same! I really think that i should buy and sell online. online sgd12 - sgd18 oso got people buy.. hee.. amazing place. last year i did not notice that there are so many stores
selling accessories! I wonder if i have the time to go there and stock up on the accessories on the last day in Shanghai. hee. I even bot a tripod! for my camera.. wanted to buy a hello kitty pouch for the camera but no money to buy le. heh. very very shiok.. but after counting realise that i spend a lot in a day. heh.
btw I also got a new handphone.. heh.. Nokia E61i ... my mum helped me buy in Singapore. heh. cos she has sgd100 starhub voucher. so the hp cost sgd288 after using the voucher. heh.. another major expenditure in the money of July. heh.
Thank God got pay increment (even though I duno how much, but the letter is ready for collection in sg le). hehe..

Great shopping Day!

Yesterday we had a nice Italian dinner at an Italian restaurant, Isola Bella (think it means beautiful island).

Woke up at 12.17pm today and went for lunch with my colleague, Jestee who shared room with me. went to McDonald's near the hotel. the food was not nice at all. standard is low. wonder if Mac conducts checks to ensure the quality of the food. outside Mac there were two stores selling dvds. quite good shows. even got the Taiwan variety show, 康熙来了 and 女人我最大! haha.. then on the road back to the hotel there was a roadside stall selling necklaces and earrings! v nice and not expensive. i bot 4 and a half pairs of earrings and two necklace all for sgd19! cheap or not? hahahaha.. i think i can buy the earrings and sell online.. should have people who would want to buy. see some of the photos below.



However, the weather was very hot and as i kept squatting down and standing up at the roadside store, i started to feel a bit uncomfortable after leaving the roadside store and entering an indoor beverage counter. Squatted down to let my blood go to my brain cos i felt the blacking out feeling. Afraid that i wud faint in the shop. thank God i felt better after squatting down for a while. :)
left the shop and went back to the hotel. must be too hot. the heat is quite unbearable. At night after dinner, when to watson and spent another bomb there. Bot 4 cute magnet stuff toy animal for sgd1 each at another roadside stall. the stuff toy looks like the NICI toys that you can find in gift shops in sg. v cheap and cute. then when to the roadside stalls nears the hotel. found one that sells books. got Harry Porter and the Deathly Hollows (English) there. Finally found Harry Porter and the Order of the Phoenix! bot it for sgd4. its a fake la.. but the prints are fine and clear. hee. cos i dun want to keep so no point buying the real one. i just want to read the story and give it to another person to read. haha. i oso bot 美容大王 by 大S. the first book cos i ored have the second one. only for sgd 2! even cheaper than a magazine! omg. so cheap. hee. v happy that i bot so many things today. tml (later la. cos now ored 3 am) gg to 七浦路 shop again! hee.

Handphone expense

I bought a pre-paid card for use when I was in Xiamen for the past two weeks. Hence, i did not buy a new one when i came to Shanghai. Using a Xiamen pre-paid card in Shanghai means that I have to pay for roaming within the country. Without fully understanding the telephones charges for international calls, i top up RMB 100 on tuesday night and this (thursday) morning, i received a sms saying that my balance is -RMB14.80. Gosh! I only called home on tuesday and wednesday night. about 15 of international call costs RMB100 (approx ~ SGD 20). I used about the same amount for my two weeks in Xiamen. the local roaming plus the international call is so expensive. thinking of buying another sim card but like a bit waste $ and my current number is quite nice. going to force my mom to buy the phoenix card which is so much cheaper.. Haha..
Work has been okay. quite relax. shared room with my colleague. Pre-believer! hooray! hope to know her more. :) Tomorrow is Friday!!! TGFIC ~ Thank God Friday Is Coming! :D

Hello Shanghai!

I am currently in Shanghai.. staying in the same hotel as last year. However, thank God that the hotel has renovated the rooms!! Now the room is so much brighter and the breakfast is better than last year.. haha.. happy.. this year the client help us pay for the Internet in the room.. sigh.. i wonder how many hotels charge Internet usage fees... duh... but the interesting about the room now is that there are desktops in the rooms! :) and there is a "kinky" toilet hahah.. cos the glass is frosted glass.. lucky not transparent glass... haha... see the photo above.. hee... i took some photos of the things i bought too :) the hand cream less than SGD 3! so cheap for such a big tube...the foot cream is quite good to use for my dry feet!! :) finally my feet has found its fren (: hee.. still haven start working.. haha.. was busy uploading photos and updating blog. hee..

heavy mood day..

Today my senior and I spoke less than 10 sentences (including msn conversation).. I only reply him when he ask me question. I asked him where should i put the files he just make a sign to put on the table.. can sense that he is reluctant to talk to me..
Sometimes i really wonder if it is my attitude or its him.. if its me how come i dun have such a problem with other seniors? maybe they are more tolerate than him.. As i talk to my colleague, i cannot help but tell him what happen between the two of us. lucky i didn't cry. would have been super embarrassing if i had.
My manager asked me how was the job. I want to say its okay, but i couldn't. I told her I would talk to her over lunch tomorrow but she smsed me in the evening just now said that her back is aching again. she'll be on MC tml. so postpone our lunch to Wed. But at least tml jovy will be back from leave. so i dun have to face him alone. phew.
I was rather affect after i told my colleague about the tins that happened. As i was walking to the bus stop, i saw Perlini Silver and the big SALE signboard standing in front of it. so i walked towards it.. and i was actually thinking to myself that i can buy a bracelet to cheer myself up. but the funny thing is I dun usually buy bracelets and it so happen that the shop is having 50% sale on all braclet and pendents! I bot a bracelet with 2butterfly.. haha..shopping therapy does help a bit huh :)
But of cos God is still my ultimate comfort and shelter! Hallelujah! Praise God for allowing me to experience all this.. I pray that i'll grow to be a stronger girl. to be able to control my emotions better, to be able to be more objective and not take things too personally! Father, i pray that I will depend on you in all that I do and I will try my best in eveything cos I'm working for You Father and not man. Praise you Lord! I pray that my relationship with my senior will improve gradually.. Thanks you Father. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen!

Returning

Yea.. I'm going to be back in Singapore soon! This Saturday 7.10 am depart from Taiwan :)