When?

Yday morning went for an interview. 8am!! waited for the interview till 8.15am. zzzz. end up it was 8.50am when the interview ended and i have to go to Bt Timah from raffles place. As I have to clock in for work, I decided to take urgent half day leave. SMS my colleague to ask her help me inform the leave personnle. End up, she reply me say i dun have to come to work in the afternoon cos my boss say no half day urgent leave. Urgent leave have to take one full day. Boss called 3 persons into her room to tell them urgent leave cannot take half day only full day (which apparantly no one knew about!!) And I wonder why am I surprised?!?!? she even told them i have to explain to her why i take urgent leave. she say urgent leave is for example someone's daughter suddenly sick so take urgent leave and not cos you see the sky dark so u take urgent leave! she is obviously doubting me. she thinks i take urgent leave so that i can sleep on a rainy morning like yday? obviously i have my personal reasons! why do i have to explain!?!? She just dun trust me! How do I work for someone like that?

It's unstructured here. everything seems to depend on her mood. A few weeks ago I tried to cancel my leave she rejected it. cos our leave system is not pro enough to inform me that she has rejected it, i went to ask her to request tat she approve my cancellation of leave. and she was angry and say that she rejected it. she say to me "no more cancellation of leave from now on!" COME ON!!! how many leave does she tink i have! If i have 21 days u tink i will be so reluctant to just take and enjoy 2 free days at home?????? "New" polices are formed based on her mood!!!

I feel so suffocated here. When can I leave here????????????????????????????????????????

Father's day

Tmr is father's day. I bot a shirt for my Dad. Light purple shirt with purple stripes. Haha. Sounds v 娘 right? But it looks okay actually. Cos my mum's favourite colour is purple so tot this shirt will make both of them happy :)

I really wanna thank God for blessing me with my Dad. He really loves both my brother and i a lot. And he shows his affection for us in some obvious way. He shows me he loves me when he touch my head as if I'm still that 5 years old little girl that I used to be. He shows me he loves me when he gets out of bed before he should to wake me up. He shows me he loves me when he buys the fruits I like even though it's not cheap. He shows me he loves me when he asks me "你吃了吗？"

My Dad is a gentle person with a mild temper. Seldom does he get angry. He enjoys talking to my brother and I. But i realise i seldom spend much time to interact with him. Either I'm in my room or watching tv. I hope to make more effort to talk to him more this remaining half of the year. To find out more about what's gg on in his life. To encourage him, to be a fillal daughter, to love him, to serve him.

"Relax.. God is in control"

was talking to a brother on msn and this is what he told me:

"when I believe that my hands can achieve success for me, when I put God aside, that's when I get extremely concerned and conscious of success and tiny things will matter to me, I will allow anxiety to overtake and overwhelm me but when I know God is in charge, and I believe in God, I know I just have to learn the lesson/message that God wants to tell me, and he will decide the outcome since he will decide the outcome, I rest my anxiety upon him, be ready for the outcome and get ready for things that he has prepared after the outcome, even though it may be a worst one for things will not end after the worst outcome, as long as God lives, he will still be working or has worked a way out for you."

after reading i went "wow" literally. I've lost my focus that God is sovereign and in control. why do I worry? Why do i panic? why am I downcast?

Do I not trust that God knows best and has the best installed for all of us?

I gave an encouragement card to my little brother some years ago and the picture on the card speaks a thousand words. haha.

true and false?

Human beings can let me see how God is real yet at the same time human beings can also caused me to be disillusioned with God and Christianity.

This week

This week's been a hectic week esp the past 2 days. I seem to be wheezing through a time tunnel or something. Almost every week is the same. i can only stay at home on Monday night. the rest of the week i'm meeting people. :S

Monday night was wonderful. went jogging and then I continued to walk around this more desserted part of my neighbourhood while praying.

Wednesday meet Beatrice together with Jingwei and Lydia. It's good time spent and we had the very nice steamboat again! woots! Glad and encouraged to see Beatrice eagerly reading the bible and she will ask when there are things she does not understand. Praying and hoping that this weekend she may go to church with her sis-in-law's mom who is attending CHC in JB. :)

Tonite i'm gg for a trial pilates class with my colleague. I hope there'll be chance to get to know her more and share the gospel with her! I shared ah long's testimony with her last week! cos she's an ex-auditor and I thought she will be able to appreciate the testimony much more :) i'm glad she was willing to listen to the testimony :) God is faithfully at work in the lives of people around me and this always brings me joy.

God is faithful!

Yday was watching Banned from the Bible on Youtube when Kelly sent me a message to confirm the meet up on Sunday. We chit chat a bit through Whatsapp and she asked me what am I doing. I merely told her i'm watching Youtube. haha. then she asked me what am i watching. hahaha. I told her i'm watching Banned from the Bible.. its a documentary blah blah.. thought she will just "orh.." Instead, she proceed to ask what is it about! I tot to myself "Man! this is an opportunity!"

I briefly explained and she was interested! :D Praise God! we chatted on msn subsequently and talked about Adam and Eve, touch a bit on the canonisation of the bible and then she told me what she know about Noah. She told me also that she read an article about work in the newspapers and got this one man commented that work is a punishment from God and he quoted verses. but she can't remember the verses.

She finds the stories interesting and ask me to tell her what other stories are there. hahaha. I told her i'll tell her more on Sun. She say okay!

Thank God for working in her heart! God has been faithful as always! cos Meiming and I hoped to be able to share with her.. although we have met up a few times, most of the times its we did not talk about spiritual stuff.

Praying that the Holy Spirit will work in her heart and be with us as we share more on Sunday!! woots! Praise GOD!

District meeting

On way home from the district meeting. Thank God for the district meeting. Much needed after a draining day/partial week. Was feeling super low. But God is still good in my life.
He has always been good and faithful. And he will continue to be faithful! I'm simply amazed by God :)

Spiritual highs and lows?

Why do I get affected so easily by ppl's response?

Relying on the Holy Spirit

I am currently doing a bible study series on the Holy Spirit. Today's study is on the fulfillment of the promise (the baptism of the Holy Spirit). Thank God for speaking to me of the importance of the Holy Spirit. More often than not, i under-estimate the power of the Holy Spirit or should I say I'm not really clear in my understanding of the Holy Spirit. only remember that its for empowerment. but empowerment for? ........For witnessing for Christ!! You may be going "duh..of cos.. if not then?" But it's really a revelation for me. cos many times i don't rely on the Holy Spirit during outreach even though its given to me for this very purpose. I rely on my own skills in communication, relating with people etc. That's why i struggle in bringing the message of salvation across to people.

From Acts 2:37 we can see that the response to a Spirit filled message is repentance. wow. its what we hope our friends will respond when we share the message of salvation!

Praying for a spirit filled meet up later and that the Holy Spirit will move in a very powerful way!

Surprise on Mon night

Beatrice asked me "how to read the bible?"

PTL!! Although kind of caught off guard. It's a wonderful thing to be caught off guard with!

Meeting her tmr with Cuifen. Hope can get to talk more about God. :)

Holy Spirit pls move in a powerful way!

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A Father's love

I was walking to the bus stop and was approaching this sizable puddle of water (due to the rain). There was a pretty and slim OL and a father and daughter in front of me. Pretty OL walked through the puddle while maintaining her composure. The father stepped into the puddle and retreated. I thought the father and daughter will take another route. I was really surprised when the father bent down and piggyback his daughter through the puddle. The little girl's white school shoes remained white and dry. What a heart-warming scene to witness on a drizzling monday morning.

"If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" ~ Mattew 7:11 ~

My 16.05.2010

Woke up feeling tired as I usually would feel on every other Sunday. And as usual, I wake up once at ard 8 or 9 plus then go back to sleep and wake up at ard 10:23 and then force myself to get out of bed. Ha. What a pig I am.

But really thank God that today the cab came almost right after I step onto the side of the road to wait for one. Really blessed by that. But I duno why I felt super tired as the cab head towards Cuppage. Prayed for the strength and sustainance for the day cos today is gg to be a long day with WFL classes after lunch.

Thank God he must have heard my prayers. Although still a bit letargic, I was able to really worship God and be attentive through out the service. God really spoke to me thru the entire service. Holy comm reminded me to place God in the throne of my life and not myself at the throne. The sermon also spoke to me about making use of every opportunity that God has given to us in our life. My current job, the colleague sitting next to me, my friends on my msn list etc. Actually I have more opportunities than I can imagine to impact someone. Ps Jeff told us the difference btw Kainos and Chronos. One is making most of the opportunity and the other is like just gg thru the motion. I have the Chronos mentality at work and in cg and also at home. No wonder there's not much fruits in my life. Another point that spoke to me was knowing the God of the word vs the word d God. When we obey God's commands without understanding the heart of God we are just like servant doing the will of the master and not as sons and daughters. I struggle so much cos I have not capture the heart of God. I hope to change and really make full use of every opportunity I have with my cg, friends, colleagues. And to have a deeper relationship with God by capturing God's heart in his commands.

God is always so good and patient with me. Thank God!

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Lazy Saturday

I Am sitting at coffee bean at Forum the Shopping Mall now waiting for Meiming to come pick me up. Meet Jingwei for lunch and then went for facial. Hope the treatment will help and relieve my face of the blemishes. The scars will need some time to go away I guess. Need to be patient.

Sometimes I wonder, will I be able to do so many thing on sat if not for the fact that I work in the morning. Was thinking if I never work on sat, i'll probably wake up when half the day is gone. Haha. Good that i'm startin to see some good in working on Sat. At least I have a job that's not very stress, pays well and located near my house.

Later Meiming and I gg to Sileas house for steamboat! And the great thing is that many ex-colleagues are coming!! Woots! Dear God, I pray that we will have a wonderful time of sharing and catching up. Help me to be sensitive to the needs of my ex-colleagues and be able to bring your love to them. In Jesus name. Amen.

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Yesterday was a terrible day. today seems like going to be a terrible one too and the weekend that's going to come.

God, please let me see beyond the current situations and praise you. For you created me and gave me life so that I can enjoy all things. I want to look to you in all that I do. Give me a bigger heart to love and accept people who are different from me. You will make a way for me. I trust you Lord.

Thank you Lord. In Jesus's name. Amen.

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Jakarta day 3

Today's lunch is special. Indonesian style Nasi Lemak.


See the rice are nicely packed in small banana leaf. V small size. I think Erick ate 7. I ate 2.


Can choose from prawn, chicken, tau gua and the spare parts. Then they will deep fried it. The prawns are nice. I selected 2 sticks of prawn. Erick had chicken with those spare parts. Heh.


The special thing is that plate of sauce. This dark soy sauce with peanut sauce. U mix it and eat with the rice n meat. Add a bit of chili to it to add some spicy flavour :) nice. I had 2 plates of that sauce and Erick had 3. He has a scary appetite. Haha.


Yummy! Cleared everything!

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Jakarta trip day 2

Wanna thank God for the dinner with Richard and Tanaka-san! We talked a lot about religion. Actually before today I had some promptings that I should find chance to talk to Richard about spiritual stuff but I think it would be hard. And also duno how to bridge to spiritual stuff. The dinner was pretty normal. I managed to ask Richard if he is a vegetarian because of religion. He said yes. Din really managed to talk more about it until Tanaka-san asked Richard about his wife. His wife died in an accident in Tibet 6 years ago. Its after that incident that he questioned about the meaning of life and became a buddhist. He says he believe in reincarnation. This sparked off a series of spiritual conversation. He studied in the UK and his wife is actually a Christian and he actually go to church with her. But he believes that all gods in the different religion are actually the same God.
I was very amazed that God can use me in such a way. I prayed that I'll be a good testimony to impact people in my workplace.

He also inspired me. He say he wants to earn a lot of money while he can now and retire at 60 and do charity work. Now he is doing a bit thru the Buddhist association that he is in. But his dream is to build a school in Tibet and name it after his wife. He went on to share he really have a burden for the poor and hope he can do something for them. So he dun spend much. He knows what is his end goal. I was inspired by this and felt guilty at the way I spend my money. Imagine the amount of money I can use to help others! It's really a good time of chatting and getting to know each other. Praise God for the time spent :)

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Jakarta day 1

Touched down safely. Meet the regional staff from Singapore. The CEO of MI Grp oso here. And finally met Richard, one of the Chief Operating Officer for the group. We only know each other through email. Haha.

Got a pleasant surprise when we got to the hotel cos my room was upgraded to the executive room but cost is still deluxe room price due to shortage of rooms. Happy :) some shots of the room.











Hope to have a fruitful stay here and able to help the company here to improve. :)

Maritime Amazing Race!

Took part in the maritime amazing race held this morning from 9am to 1pm. We need to follow the clues on a map to find the checkpoints and answer the quiz qn at each checkpoint. Points are awarded for the right answers. The fastest team with the highest point wins $1,500 cash!

My team consisted of Marcus, Chingyang, Xiangjun and myself. We had a good time of and running :) photo of us with our completed map. (see the long queue behind us - those are the teams that are queueing up to submit there maps.)







Our answer sheet!



Our lucky no? Heh.

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CG @ FMC 23 Apr

Led praise and worship today with our budding new guitarist - Phylex! Woohoo! I was surprised that Phylex is actually quite good at playing guitar! Hehe. I really got eyes never see orh-e-orh. He said he learnt a no of instruments including piano, volin, organ etc. wen he was young. Thank God for providing our cg with a new guitarist!

We sang Today is the day and My Greatest Love is You. :)

Another thing to give thanks for is that Chingyang came for cg yday! Praise God! And he even helped out with writing lyrics and seem to enjoy the session. :)

Pray that God'll grow the seeds of faith planted in him :)

Another thankgiving pt: Hello kitty drove me Lydia and David home after our cg. :) really thank her and thank God for blessing me with a considerate and caring fren like her :)

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Thanksgiving! PB2G!

Woke up today feeling well rested :D I slept at 9.30pm last nite! First time sleep so early on a weekday! Usually I sleep at 12 midnight. These few days have been v tired. So tired that I even suspected that I was sick. (I only have a bit of throat infection anf didn't see a doc cos it appears to be not seriously) another reason why I slept so early is cos I din have my laptop with me it was with my brother and he didn't return home early last nite. If I had my lappie I would have on it and slept at midnight again and woke up feeling grumpy this morning. Heh..

Lesson learnt: lend laptop to brother more often. ;)

Another thing to give thanks for is that my friend is coming for service this Sunday! It's a friend whom I would never have tot possible to invite for the service. She's usually busy with work and we hardly meet up individually. Only as a group.

God really work in miraclous ways :) she called my last wed evening and told me she'll come by my house to pass me chilli that her grandma made. It's super thoughtful of her, cos she rem telling me and dough that she'll save some chilli for us if her grandma make again. (I don't even rem it!) God gives me wonderful frenz! Praise God for them! (and the thing is I dun even think I deserve them co I'm so not thoughful, critical, petty blah blah blah..) so end up I was able to pass her the invitation card! :) and she told me she wants to go but may have to work.

Yday SMS her for her reply she say coming or the 2pm service but will be slightly late! Praise God that her heart is open! :D